你

从你的态度，我知道自己对于你而言，除了朋友还是朋友。
但不知从什么时候开始，对你的感觉有了微妙的变化。

我不是主动的人。因为我知道即使自己主动，也不会得到自己想要的。
但若不主动，日后我一定会后悔。

很烦。
为什么你要在这个时候出现。
为什么。。。

有时不想承认自己喜欢你，只是不想让自己受伤。

第一篇秘文

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情感倾巢而出
Bad sign!
是时候控制一下了！

Life doesnt go as you wish, sometimes.

So if you ever talked to me about this you will know, that I don't really wanna go back to UK for the BPTC course.

3 years of UK life is already enough for me. Everytime when I almost give up, I told myself to hold on for just these 3 years. But now another year more? I really don't feel like holding on for another 365 days.

I told my friend that I am definitely coming back Msia for good after this course.

And his reaction was so big, that he couldn't believe there's someone actually prefer Msia more than overseas.

Say I'm a mummy's girl, but I am definitely coming back Msia for good.

Life is so good here. Friends and family are all here. And I feel more comfortable to be with people around here.

These few weeks in Malaysia, I feel so much happier compare to the 3 damn years in UK.

Also, i see a lot of chances here in Malaysia.

So why UK? 

Anyway, I've been thinking of my future path all these while. I'm getting clear of my future path now. But to be honest, it is not so law related. 

So why still BPTC in UK, you may ask?

I have to admit I am not someone who can stand firm with my own decision.

I scared myself regretting if I really forego the chance.

So since there's UK offer for the course, I choose to put all my dreams aside, and go ahead with the safest route first.

I am young enough to take such route I think.

I hope this decision is right.

By the way, did I tell you that BPTC is not an easy subject, especially BPTC in BPP?

According to my senior, no one malaysian able to graduate on time this year.

This explains all I guess.

I have no choice now but to keep moving on.