Fate?

I have many friends.
At least I do think so.
But when I'm down, I can't seem to find anyone to talk to.
I felt so helpless. But I learnt.
I learn to be strong. I learn to overcome everything by myself.
But hell, I hate the feelings of facing problem by myself.
The loneliness and the fear.

I mean, people do get emo at times.
It need not be any big matter for one to get emo.
And since it's not any big deal, you won't want to bother your family members.
Instead, I just need someone to be there to be my audience.
But I think I'm not significant enough, for my friends to put down their busy duties and listen to me.

Conclusion is??
Quote from my mum - It's time for you to find a boyfriend!
Haha.. If only doing is easier than saying.
But someone told me, the more desperate you are, the harder you will find one.
So I'll just leave everything to fate.

Yes, fate. where are you?