(= FoReVa PrInCeSs =)

新年快乐！

2012-01-25T16:58:00.001Z

好久好久没有这么热闹了。

那个让我笑到飙泪的夜晚，
那个让我彻夜未眠就为了玩牌的他们，
和那个让我觉得自己是最幸福的家庭。

出国深造，所以三年没过新年了。
还记得三年前的新年，是外婆和我们过的最后一个新年。
今年终于回来过新年了，却少了外婆的声音，也再也吃不到外婆亲手煮的鱼漂了。
想您了，外婆。
但外婆要是看到我们这个家族依然那么和睦，也应该感到很欣慰吧！

我庆幸自己生长在这个无忧无愁的家庭。

我庆幸自己从小到大一直都是被家人们宠爱的孩子。

我更庆幸自己做了之前的那个决定，让我再次真实地体会到幸福的滋味。

我知道，我应该珍惜拥有的每个当下，

记住幸福快乐的每个时刻。

新年新愿望，我希望这样幸福的生活能够一直持续下去，到很久很久很久。。。

祝大家：新年快乐！:)

A new Hello

2012-01-20T00:15:00.000Z

终于踏入社会大学了。
终于走出我呆了好多年的象牙塔了。

做决定前，我已经想了很久。
但是真正做出这样一个决定的时候，只需一秒钟的时间。

做了决定后，很庆幸得到很多朋友的支持与鼓励。
但是也有一些一直追问我为什么要半途而废。
老实说，我已经回答到不想再回答了。
我知道，人有好奇心没错。
但可不可以不要再追问了。
放心吧，绝对不是因为家里出了问题，或是我赶不上进度才选择离开的。
会这样做，自然有我的理由与坚持。
但这样的坚持我不想一直对别人重复，
因为不断地重复会让那所谓的坚持变廉价。
所以，麻烦关心我的朋友们，
别再拿这个问题烦我了。

目前为止，
我没有后悔自己做了这样的选择。
至少，能够陪伴家人的时间变多了。
至少，继三年前的庆祝，今年我终于又能和家人一起共度新年了。
至少，我的笑容变多了，忧郁变少了。
至少，我的日子比之前充实很多。

你尽管笑，尽管看不起这样半途而废的我。
但我始终相信，这样的决定没有所谓的对或错，值得不值得。
即使有，那也是十年后回首才能下的定论。
目前为止，
我还是很庆幸自己做了这样的选择。

所谓人生，
本来就是一场冒险。
这一次的我，不想循规蹈矩地过。
毕竟，
Life will reward you with a new hello, only if you're brave to say goodbye。

这次是认真的。。。

2012-01-09T08:56:00.001Z

真的
真的很想放弃。
我知道这样很蠢，也知道这样注定会被一些人嘲笑。
但，这些都不是我会在乎的。
因为人生是我的。

这之前，我从来不知道自己要什么。
有一天突然问自己，如果过不久就是末日了，
在剩下的几年间你最想要做的是什么。
得到的答案或许还有些模糊，
但有一点我非常笃定，
现在我在做着的,不是我想要做的。

没有想到自己也有厌倦读书的一天
而且这次，是真的非常非常厌倦。
或许是周遭朋友的压力吧，抑或许是自己终于长大了吧
看着一个个有了自己的工作，甚至开始组织了家庭，
对于自己的颓废和浪费时间，深感羞愧。
扪心自问，这样的人生我还要过多久。
这样的读书生活，坦白说，15年了，真的够了。

很多人都告诉我，
都读到这个份上了，就读完了再打算。
这也是我现在的想法，但我并不认同。
如果是一个你不想要的东西，即使完成了也没有意义。
到最后，还是浪费时间。

妈说，
不想读就别读吧，反正我需要你帮忙。
别让自己得忧郁症就好了。
哈，妈！放心吧，在怎样我的情绪管理还是自认合格的。

哥说，
回来吧，女孩子不需要读这么多。
反正你已经有了一纸文凭就已经很够了。
女子嘛，本来就不需要读这么多。
你的人生，自己决定吧！

有这样的家人，
我想，我真的没有什么好在怕的了。
不管我的决定是什么，
我想，有一样是我绝对不会改变的，
就是我爱我的家人。
超爱超爱。

很矛盾地，
在写这篇的时候，
我播放的竟是这首歌：

2011 又到了尾声

2011-12-28T03:29:00.001Z

2011 是我人生一个重要的转折：
大学毕业，21岁，终于转做大人了。
尽管给自己设立的一些目标和期望却好像没有完成，
现阶段，还算满足。

又是时候为2012年立下新目标了。
是个怎么样的一年呢？
又要许下什么样的愿望承诺呢？

总是有一些天马星空的幻想

总是有可能一辈子也实现不了的梦想

总是在说要有勇气

心却总是被懦弱占领

但这些都不重要了

现在最大的愿望就是：

如果2012 年是世界末日，我希望末日的那一天，一家人是在一起的，一个也不能少！

这首歌，为2011做了总结，也完美地掀开2012 的序幕！

再见草莓甜甜圈街角咖啡店落下雨点
再见黑白老照片回忆电影院埋进地面
再见我们初识的那个公园那天是谁先吻了谁被谁遗忘的秋千
再见那麼多名车名表名鞋最后我们只能带走名为回忆的花园

如果要告别如果今夜就要和一切告别

如果你只能打一通电话你会拨给谁

晚安鹦鹉和孔雀花豹和人类望著海面

晚安底片和唱片沉浮在浪间就像诗篇

晚安自由女神漂到华尔街我们在甲板上摸到杜拜塔顶的塔尖

晚安海豚跃出西藏的屋檐原来幻想中的这天会比幻想更唯美
还是要告别还是放弃海拔以下的世界你会装进什麼回忆纪念在行李里面

终於要告别终於没有更多的明天要追你有什麼遗憾依然残缺还没有完美

当彗星燃烧天边陨石像雨点

当辐射比阳光还要炽烈让爱变得浓烈 当每段命运更加壮烈

当永远变成一种遥远当句点变成一种观点让人类终於变成同类

勇敢的告别勇敢地向过去和未来告别告别每段血缘身分地位聪明或愚昧

最后的告别最后一个心愿是学会高飞飞在不存在的高山草原星空和蓝天

让诺亚方舟航向了海平线

让诺亚方舟航向了换日线

让诺亚方舟航向了天际线

让诺亚方舟航向了无限

梦

2011-11-24T01:40:00.002Z

那一夜，那场梦，很美。
美得我不想起床。
美得我想就这样活在梦里。

原来人，再怎么压抑自己的思绪，
终究无法控制自己的梦。
以为能够蒙骗过自己，
最真实的情感却赤裸裸地表现在梦里。

但人，终究得从梦中醒来，
然后回到现实中。
那个压抑的现实，那个冷酷的现实。

那一夜的那场梦，很美。
但就那一夜，就那一场梦。
一觉醒来，
原来什么都不曾拥有。

梦中，
你来过，然后你走了，
只留下
星空。

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹？
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風？
一個人想著一個人是否就叫寂寞？

命運偷走如果只留下結果
時間偷走初衷只留下了苦衷
你來過然後你走後只留下星空

那一年我們望著星空有那麼多的燦爛的夢
以為快樂會永久像不變星空陪著我

獵戶天狼織女光年外沉默
回憶青春夢想何時偷偷隕落？
我愛過然後我沈默人海裡漂流

那一年我們望著星空未來的未來從沒想過
當故事失去美夢美夢失去線索而我們失去聯絡
這一片無言無語星空為什麼靜靜看我淚流？
如果你在的時候會不會伸手擁抱我？

細數繁星閃爍細數此生奔波
原來所有所得所獲不如一夜的星空
空氣中的溫柔回憶你的笑容
彷彿只要伸手就能觸摸

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹？
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風？
一個人習慣一個人

這一刻獨自望著星空從前的從前從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受也可以是享受享受僅有的擁有

那一年我們望著星空有那麼多的燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久像不變星空陪著我

最後只剩下星空像不變回憶陪著我

Lil things that touched me :)

2011-11-15T19:20:00.003Z

My memory is so short that I got to write this down before I forgot.
So I had Advocacy class this morning. I spent quite some time to do my skeleton argument, and I thought I can do well in the class. I gave myself higher aim since I got quite satisfying mark form the tutor last week.
But life just doesn't go as you wish.
I was totally not in the mood this morning to present my speech. I couldn't structure my sentences properly. I couldn't really listen to my own voice. And as I was presenting, I knew I did it badly.
That really ruined my mood, and I was so disappointed on myself.

The tutor gave me my feedback and told me what and how to improve. I accepted whatever she said, and told her I wasn't really feeling well. And I don't know was it because it's so obvious that I was down, this guy - the super charming guy from my group - he said to my tutor, that it was unfair to use the english people standard to judge me, since the method and style I was using might be accepted in Msia and I will be practising in Msia at last (sth like that la...). And he said it in a very very very nice and sweet way. And OMGosh, it was so heartwarming! He really managed to cheer me up a lil bit at that time. I almost teared. haha. And no, I do not feel offended. Not even a bit. because I know he was just trying hard to make me feel better. And his sweet smile to me after that nearly kills me=P

Then the tutor moved on and commented that my voice was too loud (which is funny, cuz normally ppl get comment of being too soft instead of too loud..haha). And another guy from my group told the tutor that this might be because the room was too small. And if I get to the courtroom my voice would be fine. Once again, I was so surprised and touched. Seriously, they could just sit there and commented nothing which I normally would do so. But they chose to speak for me just to make me feel better. And all these came in such a right timing as I was so down in the class just not.

They are the nicest ang moh friends I ever met. Seriously.I rmb during uni time I do not have any ang moh friends because they couldnt really pronounce my name and couldnt care less to try to pronounce it. And my groupmates, they are the only few who willing to get my name correct and pronounce it SO ACCURATELY!

True that I was down because I did not perform well and did not meet my expectation today. But then I just found out that I have such lovely and supportive groupmates who are always there for me. I doubt I would talk to them more even after this. But again, Thanks for making my day! Love they all so much! <3

谢谢你们爱我的每个人

2011-11-03T15:40:00.001Z

我们来自不同的方向

却在十字路口相遇了

很难得我遇到了你们

懂我的爱我的宠我的

放纵我的自私与骄傲

忍耐我的不屑与刁蛮

然后在我伤心的时候

听我倾诉还会逗我笑

在我需要鼓励的时候

总是给予我无限支持

我从不觉得自己很好

却因有你们而感骄傲

我从来只是个普通人

却得到公主般的对待

越长大才越发现原来

世界没有想像般单纯

这年头要找个知心的

难上加难

也因为这样

我更加珍惜我们之间

天真无杂质的纯友谊

原来

不必拥有任何地承诺

更不需要刻意经营

才是我最为珍惜的友谊

人生何其短

遇上你们

是我的福气

真的

真的很谢谢你们

爱我的每个人

希望你们都好。

2011-11-01T16:37:00.001Z

世界这么小，所以我们相遇了。

世界那么大，所以我们都彼此错过了。

曾经有过交集的，现在变成陌路人的，

只想问，你们好吗？

不需要得到回答，只希望你们真的很好。

曾经以为友情不堪一击，但原来我从未遗忘。

偶尔回想，还是觉得快乐，还是觉得骄傲。

毕竟以前的嬉闹和疯狂，是我们共有的回忆。

事过境迁，我们依然努力地过着各自的生活。

如果有一天，我们再度重逢还能说得上话时，

我会告诉你，我依然很好。

即便你已不在乎。

星期日。

2011-10-23T13:30:00.001+01:00

压力大的时候，
只想单纯地找人谈谈话。
如果谈话只会带来更大的问题，
那不如不谈。

有时一杯咖啡，一句沉默，

可以成就一个下午。

生活可以很简单，

请别将它复杂化。

21。

2011-10-17T00:51:00.000+01:00

21岁生日的那一天，简单，快乐，满足。
原来已经足够。

真心感谢曾出现在我生命中的每一位。
真心感谢还存在在我生命中的每一位。

他们说，21岁是人生的一个转捩点。
所以，21岁了，女孩需要长大。
接下来的目标应该就是成熟，稳重，懂事，独立，勇敢。
女孩要变大人了，心里免不了有些慌。
但再怎么长大，女孩还是希望自己保有一颗永不改变的赤子之心。
希望这一点，女孩不会忘。

为自己许下了愿望。

希望一切都能实现。

加油！21岁的女孩。
:)

给自己的信。

2011-10-13T00:04:00.003+01:00

理想主义者，所以只能活在自己的世界里。
走进现实，才发现原来很残酷。
或许会遇到荆棘波澜
或许会受到冷言冷语
或许才发现自己没有自己想像中的好
现实就是这样，不留情面
狠狠对你开枪
坚强，再坚强。
才不会这么轻易被打倒。

很容易受伤，很容易满足。
很难去记住一个人，也很难去忘掉一个人。
但人生苦短，
快乐就好。
对得起自己，就好。

不喜欢当初就不会选择，喜欢的就不要放弃。
无论遇到多大的挫折或困难，都不要忘记

初衷。

举棋不定，是最致命的缺点。
待一切成定局时，才来懊悔遗憾。
很多时候，生活不允许你斤斤计较。
青春很短。
放手去闯吧！
青春逝去以前，没有任何失败是你经不起的。

October.

2011-10-10T21:13:00.001+01:00

21 years, and this is the first time that I actually counted my birthday wrongly.

I keep thinking my birthday is at next week, when it's supposed to be this weekend.

Haha, blame it on the hectic course I have now.

How I wish my family's here to celebrate with me.

I miss my dad, my mum, my brothers, my nephews, and everyone in Msia.

Apart from that, I'm all good.

Working hard for the course, Making some new friends, Discover many nice places.

And yeah, I guess I love London more than I expected.

Proof of me still surviving:

Why the special effect? Cuz I didn't put on any make up, and cuz this effect makes me look slimmer. blekss! :P

依旧固执。

2011-10-09T03:25:00.007+01:00

我喜欢一个人看书写字，不喜欢人多的地方，却害怕寂寞。
我喜欢自由自在，想做什么就做什么，不喜欢别人告诉我应该或不应该做什么。
我不高兴时希望找到人倾诉，高兴时能够找到人分享。
我喜欢放任自私的我，肆无忌惮地渴求不求回报的宠爱。

同时的我也反反复复，却小心翼翼。
我怕伤人，也怕别人伤害自己。
这样的一个我，也许一辈子都不会得到幸福。

但在一辈子结束前，我还是会坚定地等待着。

旧的去了，新的怎么还不来。

2011-09-03T19:32:00.001+01:00

张惠妹的”我最亲爱的”，总让我想起你。
看你最近的照片，又觉得你变帅了。
庆幸自己喜欢过你。
庆幸自己曾经被你喜欢，哪怕只是短暂的瞬间。
庆幸自己从未和你在一起，所以至今依然保留着对你的良好印象。
更庆幸事过境迁后，我和你还能保持着联络，而且还能相处得更自然了。

心情平复了很久，很久。

直到遇见了他，该死的涟漪又再次泛起。
以前的我选择了默默喜欢，享受暗恋，然后在时间的洗涤下让一切恢复原状。
但这次，我很想主动一次，因为错过了他，我怕我会后悔。
但我的懦弱让我再次退缩，因为我真的真的很怕受到伤害。
更何况是这次有99.9%的机会受到伤害。
我更害怕因此而影响了彼此的友谊，因为这段友谊，我想我比你还珍惜。

错过幸福，我知道是我该死，不能怪谁。
但每一次和他相见，就换来多一次的遗憾。遗憾自己错过了一个很好的人。
然后总在夜深人静时，独自失落。
哈哈，我的人生啊，你什么时候才要赐给我运气与勇气！

你

2011-08-29T18:20:00.000+01:00

从你的态度，我知道自己对于你而言，除了朋友还是朋友。
但不知从什么时候开始，对你的感觉有了微妙的变化。

我不是主动的人。因为我知道即使自己主动，也不会得到自己想要的。
但若不主动，日后我一定会后悔。

很烦。
为什么你要在这个时候出现。
为什么。。。

有时不想承认自己喜欢你，只是不想让自己受伤。

第一篇秘文

2011-08-17T11:15:00.000+01:00

最近
情感倾巢而出
Bad sign!
是时候控制一下了！

Life doesnt go as you wish, sometimes.

2011-08-13T09:35:00.001+01:00

So if you ever talked to me about this you will know, that I don't really wanna go back to UK for the BPTC course.

3 years of UK life is already enough for me. Everytime when I almost give up, I told myself to hold on for just these 3 years. But now another year more? I really don't feel like holding on for another 365 days.

I told my friend that I am definitely coming back Msia for good after this course.

And his reaction was so big, that he couldn't believe there's someone actually prefer Msia more than overseas.

Say I'm a mummy's girl, but I am definitely coming back Msia for good.

Life is so good here. Friends and family are all here. And I feel more comfortable to be with people around here.

These few weeks in Malaysia, I feel so much happier compare to the 3 damn years in UK.

Also, i see a lot of chances here in Malaysia.

So why UK?

Anyway, I've been thinking of my future path all these while. I'm getting clear of my future path now. But to be honest, it is not so law related.

So why still BPTC in UK, you may ask?

I have to admit I am not someone who can stand firm with my own decision.

I scared myself regretting if I really forego the chance.

So since there's UK offer for the course, I choose to put all my dreams aside, and go ahead with the safest route first.

I am young enough to take such route I think.

I hope this decision is right.

By the way, did I tell you that BPTC is not an easy subject, especially BPTC in BPP?

According to my senior, no one malaysian able to graduate on time this year.

This explains all I guess.

I have no choice now but to keep moving on.

I am still me.:)

2011-07-30T11:45:00.000+01:00

Yes. No change. And not gonna change.

21 years of single life, so what? I'm not going to get a bf just to prove that I still have a market.
21 years of single life, and I still believe that I will find the right one sooner or later.
Screw all the views and comments on me.
I will still remain as who I am.
I do not think the principles I'm holding, nor the behaviour I have now, is wrong.
So continue to laugh or look down at me.
I care no more.

Smile, for a better tomorrow.

Smile, for you are still breathing.

Smile, for you are loved by your family no matter what.

Wth's wrong with me.

2011-07-29T17:32:00.001+01:00

Confidence crisis. Don't want to admit it, but yes, it is happening on me now.

Friends no longer treating me as good as they did last time.

My so called close friends, disappoint me more.

Some told me not to look for a mr. perfect as I won't be qualify as their ideal girl.

Some told me not to be so close-minded, before more and more friends leaving me.

Some even look at me as nothing but a rich girl, which I hated the most.

Things are all going against my wish.

Guess I've taken too many things for granted last time.

Thought time would turn me into a tough girl, but hell no. I'm not.

Tell me not to care about how people look at you? seriously, if only I were the GOD.

Friendships that I once proud of. Now no more.

Confidence that I once not to worry of. Broken.

yes I'm emo now. So just dont mess with me until I sort something out.

Khxbye.

终于，我是英国法律系毕业生。

2011-07-23T22:00:00.001+01:00

凌晨4。25 分，睡不着觉。我想大概又是时差在作怪吧！躺在床上没事做，于是又爬起身，记录一下最近发生在我身上的大事。

没错，在21岁来临之前，我完成了人生的一个阶段。2011年7月18日，我大学毕业了。

时间过得真的很快，三年一晃就过了。还记得三年前，初进英国华威大学，我还不敢相信自己已经是个大学生了。三年后的今天，我从这所大学毕业，反过来不敢相信自己已经不是个大学生了。

记得在求学的那段时间，发现自己的英文无法像其他同学一样流利，便开始自卑了起来，还埋怨为什么父母从小不让我受英文教育，一味地让我接受中华文化的熏陶。看着来自世界各地的法律系朋友，个个的父母不是大学士就是大律师，我还一度埋怨为什么自己的父母连一个简单的英文句子都拼不出来，学习遇到任何问题都无法向他们求助。后来我发现，父母没有受过高等教育未尝不是一件好事，至少他们并不会严苛地要求我一定要站在最顶端。压力大找父母倾诉时，他们会安慰我。相比某些朋友的父母施予他们的压力，我觉得自己很幸运。记得妈妈在三年里在电话中最常讲的话就是－ “当自己实力不如人时，就比人家努力十倍。但是，不要给自己太大的压力。只要尽了力，就好！”。乍听之下，有点矛盾，但却是伴我大学三年的座右铭。

的确，我并不是拿着最优异的成绩毕业。但能够毕业，我真的为自己感到骄傲。骄傲的是，三年的努力终于得到了成果。更加骄傲的是，三年的洋墨水，并没有让我放弃我做人的原则。至少，一个人在充满诱惑的环境独自生活了三年，吸烟喝酒逛夜店的恶习，我一个也没染上。

毕业了。不单只是那张英国法律文凭，更重要的是，我得到了，也学会了很多很多的东西。很多，只有在外国的这三年才获得的东西。我很感谢父母，给予我家庭的温暖，给我全力的支持。很老土也要说一声：谢谢！我终于，有一件事能够让您们以我为荣。

谢谢你们，完成了我们多年以来的梦想！

2011-06-05T12:43:00.000+01:00

初二开始，全国冠军总是与我们擦肩而过。
抱着遗憾结束了我的最后一场全国赛，还记得当时我们都哭了。
8年后的今天，你们完成了我们完成不了的梦想。
远在英国的我，为你们而高兴。也可以想像此刻的你们有多么的兴奋。
谢谢你们，给了辩论队希望，给了辩论队重新站起来的勇气。
虽然并没有和你们相处得很久, 但你们始终是在我最珍惜的辩论大家庭里。
我真的真的真的，为你们而骄傲。

此时此刻，荣耀是属于你们的。
所以，尽情地享受吧！
但此刻以后，无论是在哪里，请别忘了你们当初的坚持与热忱。
也别忘了，此刻的感动，是一点一滴的努力累积得来的。

公教中学辩论队，加油！

初恋这件小事！

2011-06-01T00:00:00.001+01:00

多久以前了。以为忘得七七八八了。结果，这部电影，又将我的思绪带回了那一年。。甜蜜却说不出口的那一年。

和这部电影很像，讲的是一位又高有帅的男生，和一位样貌平凡的女孩。讲的是男生的不以为意让女生从来就不觉得他对她有意思。讲的是因为不敢说出口而错过了彼此的情节。只是，现实中，没有多少个能有着如电影般的美好结局。

我不羡慕，不嫉妒。只是，有些感触。

其实回想起来，只不过是一些普通的言语和动作。却因为自己的“想太多”而感到甜蜜。有人说，爱情是个欺骗游戏。初恋，何尝不是这样呢。自己骗自己，自己安慰自己。就这样，一转眼就是一年。昔日觉得甜蜜的一切，如今他还是不忌讳地在重复着。我很清楚他只是站在朋友的立场，但也因为这样，似乎也代表着他否定了之前我认为的一切。

梦醒了。是有点失望。但过去的，我宁可相信着自己相信的。不想去追究，不想打破砂锅问到底，就是想保留仅存的一点点甜蜜的回忆。哪怕只是自己的“想太多”在作祟，哪怕只是自己为自己编织的一个美好的故事。

人生嘛，爱情嘛，有时是非对错划得太清楚，就失去了滋味。有些事，还是懵懂一些比较好。

时过境迁，错过的幸福我知道已经无法挽回。

对于那段纯真的，而今我可以侃侃而谈。

即使在他面前。

因为那些悸动，已经没有了。

毕竟，如电影之名，到头来只不过是件小事。

但有些回忆，是一辈子的。

那段，所谓初恋。

Take a breath before examination starts...

2011-05-15T01:39:00.001+01:00

Right, just feel like doing some blogging. So I'm here now.

Those who follow my twitter, sorry for my repetitive complaints, about my procrastination and how stress am I when I falling behind my schedule.

Blame it to the exam!

But since I'm here, this means that I actually get back to the track of my schedule again! :D

Which is good.

And bad.

I feel like I'm working like a robot, reading, typing, eating, continue reading, typing, then sleep. And the cycles go again without fail. Ok maybe I did pause for quite long hour in between for some clips and shows. But apart from that, my life is so boring!

On the other side, did I mention before that I have gold-fish memory? Oh my, I can study one chapter and forget everything on it at the night itself. Yes and I'm doing a law course. And I'm kind of speed-reading just to make sure I dont fall behind my schedule. Now, ask me anything about law. I can answer you NOTHING.

Now you know why am I so panic about exam that I will be sitting starting from 23rd.

ANd the examination board is so "kind" to me, that my exams have been crashed into a week. To be exact, 5 modules within 4 days. So great, I really do not know how to stuff everything into my brain.

Memorisation work starts on Wednesday anyway. If I am up to my schedule for the next 3 days. Wish me luck on memorising...

---

Just before I get to the bed, just to jot down this little bit more.

So I was msning with a friend this afternoon, which turned out to be quite a disappointing chat.

That some memories you treasure alot and thought it to be one of the sweetest memories you have, the other one actually does not really care about it and actually forget about it as time goes by.

Something that was so special to me, is nothing to him.

Great. I think I am stupid. Nahh...I'm not. Just that it really disappointing me.

But what to do, thats life.

---

Okay I really need to go to the bed now.

Hello blog!

2011-04-20T21:29:00.000+01:00

Just look back to my super old blog posts. And realised I actually can blog quite well.
Errr...or I should say, I WAS a good blogger actually.
But not now.....recently jus updating rubbish.
Maybe this is what study has turn me into. No much time to care about my feelings and think how to express the feelings into words.
HAHA Okay.
No mood to study. And exam is SO NEAR.
Kill me!

全世界，加油。

2011-03-17T22:30:00.001Z

那天起床，整个世界变了。
在我正熟睡的时候，世界的另一头摇晃了一下，湿了，然后乱了。
起初还没什么感觉，毕竟发生在离自己那么远的国家。
所以随便搜索了网上新闻，就继续地烦恼着自己的未来，到底要不要冒险地选一间竞争超高的学校读。
才一个下午，面子书，twitter，微博，满满地都是关于海啸地震的新闻，然后是辐射外泄的新闻。
发现事情没有自己想像地那么微不足道了。
于是就上网认真地看了一下海啸吞噬整座城市的片段，再看到核电厂爆炸的片段。
然后心里啾了一下。

才发现，在天灾面前，生命是脆弱的。
谁会知道，每一次的对话和见面，会不会是最后一次。
毕竟死亡，无预警。

才发现，我之前的烦恼忧虑是无聊和没有意义的，比起那些在生死关头挣扎着的。。。
进了哪间学校，即使进不到，又有什么关系呢？
人生有更多重大的事。

我想今后，我不会再太过执着于每个小事。
优柔寡断，自怨自艾的性格也是时候改一改了。

原来人生，并不要求完美。
庆幸自己无恙地呼吸着每一秒的空气，庆幸自己没有遭遇到他们遭遇的一切。
其实，自己已经很幸福了。
至少还能够在无聊的时候玩，累了的时候睡，想家的时候还能听到亲人的关心问候。

不管2012会不会是末日，
珍惜着活着的每一刻，珍惜拥有着的一切，当一切还来得及的时候。
看看那些还在和辐射搏斗，还有那些被迫与家人分离的人们。
想想什么才是你一生中最重要的事吧。

最后，为日本哀悼，同时向“福岛50人”致敬！

今天心情特别激动

2011-03-07T00:05:00.000Z

因为一整天献给了辩论。
没错，久违的华语辩论！
我不是参赛者。我只是台下的一位观众。
看到台上的他们，看到他们在牺牲自己的假日大老远地聚在一起辩论，中学的那段辩论回忆一一浮现在脑海中。

中学的我，不是一个耀眼的辩论员。但是那一段，是我一生中最快乐的时光。
在那里，我认识了一班我敬佩的学长姐，教了我很多，关于辩论的所有，但更多的是人生。
虽然因为一次风波而疏远了，但我想说，我很想念你们！
在那里，我拥有了一班共患难的亲人，一起哭，一起笑，一起为了比赛熬夜，为了辩论而挨骂。
虽然毕业后各奔前程而少了联络，但是，我真的真的很怀念一起打辩论的时光！
我想除了他们，这辈子应该不会在遇到一群让我有归属感的圈子和朋友了。

和辩论脱节了几年，如今的我，听着辩论，发现自己的反应慢了，表达能力也弱了。
上场前的紧张和压力，在场上的忘我，和赛后的如释重负，一切的感觉，到了今天我还清楚地记得。
但我想我暂时已经没有勇气再站到台上辩论。
今天看完了四场辩论，确实给了我一股再辩论的冲动。这个暑假，应该会找队友商量商量。。:)

Boo!

2011-02-23T01:04:00.001Z

One essay down.
Two more to go.
But I will just give myself a break for maybe few days before starting.

2 essays, revisions for 5 modules, Gordon Ramsay in London, friend's birthday party in London, meeting up with bro somewhere in Europe - these are what I would do during Easter. Tell me I can organise my time properly.

Ahh...
Okay, I shouldnt write all these boring stuff in my blog anymore.
Would be updating something more meaningful, soon.
i promise.
:)

you know what...

2011-01-29T14:14:00.001Z

nevermind.

Quick post at 2am

2011-01-27T02:01:00.001Z

Hungry, and I'm feeding myself with Intellectual Property Law. Haha...

Gosh..so many events starting from tomorrow.
Tomorrow night- A grand party.
Friday night- KREAM party in Birmingham
Saturday night- cny dinner in Birmingham
Monday night- OWW Fashion show
Next Thursday - dessert potluck
Next Saturday - London!

Right...now I need to slot in time to do ENDLESS seminar works and the annoying essay.

Bless me!
*stomach still making noise..how?>.<*

Current Addiction

2011-01-18T15:17:00.000Z

1. Secret Garden
2. Dream High
3. My Princess
4. TVB - Goi Ga Beng Tun
5. We Got Married
6. Facebook

And Yes, I'm now in UK. Living a STRESSFUL yet PROCRASTINATING life.

A 40% worth assessment (4000+ words) due on February.
A 50% worth assessment and 40% worth assessment due after Easter.
Revisions for finals.
The super annoying seminar works with strict tutors.

OMG. DIE.

>.<

2011年的第一章－感恩

2011-01-01T08:30:00.001Z

致你，
忘了是怎么认识你的，只是记得中学时常从朋友那儿听到你的名字。
跟你说过吧，那时候朋友告诉我你是全校最帅的男生。（虽然我觉得还好。。哈哈）
从来不觉得我们会有交集，因为我们来自不同的学校，不同的圈子。
但缘分很不可思议，我们竟然能成为无所不谈的好朋友。
几年过去了，谢谢你还在我的身边倾听我的牢骚。
谢谢你接受我偶尔的无理取闹。
谢谢你告诉我你的心事。
谢谢你一直都对我很好，很好。
还有，很感激你即使有了女朋友，也不会重色忘友。
你一直会是我的好朋友的。去年是，今年是，明年，未来也会是！

致你，

现在的你，在干什么呢？

无聊时，心里偶尔会出现这个问题。

我或许只是你生命里其中一个在普通不过的过客。

但你却是我生命里一个很特别很特别的人。

是你让我第一次尝到了人们说的那种又酸又甜的感觉。

是你让我懂得原来我的心不是冷酷无情的。

都过去了。但回忆，我说过会用一辈子来收藏。

你有了你的新圈子新生活。我也有我的。
沟通的时间也少之又少。尤其在那次小事件后。

虽然如此，偶尔捎上的一声问候还是会感觉到很温暖。

所以，谢谢。谢谢你曾经出现过在我的生命里。

你一直会是我一个很特别的朋友。

致你，
感觉跟你很熟，又好像很不熟。
我们有很少机会谈天，每次都只是在网上。
你说，没有办法，谁叫我们念不同科系。虽然我觉得这是个很烂的借口。
我们都习惯了一谈话就互踩对方。
但其实，和你谈话觉得很舒服，完全没有压力。
你不知道吧，你在我心里其实是一个完美的人。
读书好，家底厚，对朋友好有没有脾气。（样子嘛，还好还好;p)
曾经很白痴地幻想过，我们可以成为很令人羡慕的一对。
哈哈，我知道我在发白日梦。
你是大家理想的情人，但我们之间好像不会有那样的火花。
毕竟，感情不是公式，没有的算计。
有句这样的话吧，当不成情人也能当朋友。
我是真心的希望能和你成为哥儿们。
嗯，期待那一天的到来。

致你和你,

从来没有想过会和你们成为很好的朋友。

说真的，有些地方我们还真的很不投契。

但是很奇妙地，我们相处得这么好。

谢谢，一直都在我身边的你们。

谢谢，一直给予我鼓励的你们。

谢谢，一路走来的那些日子。

我们会一直这样好下去的。

致你们，
好久没有和你们一起疯了。
一整年下来，大家都各忙各的。
得空也有自己新的朋友找。
我知道，有些时光，只停留在那时。
毕竟，岁月的催促和忙碌的生活，如今也人事已非。
很多感觉和气氛，很难再找回来。
虽然如此，在忙碌的同时，偶尔还是会想起曾经一起拥有过的回忆。
偶然相聚时，没有任何地尴尬。我们还是能侃侃而谈。
和我经历人生起伏，拥有一样回忆的你们，这辈子我想不会有任何人能够取代。
谢谢，有你们这班能够坦诚相对的兄弟姐妹们。

心存感恩地活着，是我2011年要做的。

感谢陪伴在我身边的大家。

一整年下来的高地起伏，我已经做好心里准备去迎接了。

祝大家，新的一年，能过得幸福快乐。

总结

2010-12-31T11:40:00.001Z

就这样，又过了一年。365天里，发生了很多，每一年的总结都会不同。
记得18岁那年，因为我的胆怯而使缘分和我擦肩而过，留下了错过的遗憾。
19岁那年，至亲的人离我而去，留下了无法挽回的遗憾。
20岁的今年，仍有遗憾。但却不再大惊小怪。
人，不怕有遗憾，怕只怕习惯了遗憾。
妈曾经说过，我最大的缺点就是与世无争。
这个缺点，到了今天仍然存在。
其实，与其说是与世无争，不如说是我自己放不下尊严，无法坦然面对自己的心，自己的情感。
已经忘了，什么时候将真心给丢了，也忘了将真心落在了哪儿。。
2011年，要将我的真心给找回来！

Beautiful Warwick :)

2010-12-07T20:03:00.005Z

Winter sonata feel....This was taken yesterday and it was a gloomy day:

And I woke up to a brand new world today. Welcome to the World of Narnia:

Love the frost on the tree, but this means that I'm now literally living in a freezer:

And of course, ear-muff is a MUST before your ears falling off walking in the temperature of negatives..

我的梦想。。

2010-12-05T20:19:00.000Z

是和我喜欢的人一起环游世界。
不一定是恋人，可以是家人，朋友。
这是个昂贵和不切实际的梦想。
但我相信总有一天一定能实现的。
在这之前，我会努力地做好我的本份的。

哦还有，韩国和朝鲜，请不要打战。
请不要毁了自己美丽的国家！

反正也不会死！

2010-11-11T00:12:00.003Z

思考着未来的路时，难免会回看来时路。

才发现，我一直都过得一帆风顺，眼前总是有为我铺好的康庄大道。

但，我的路只铺到大学毕业的这个十字路口。

毕业后将何去何从，我真的一片茫然。

最简单的路，就是报读BPTC，然后九个月的pupilage，然后如父母所愿的成为一位专业的律师。

复杂点的，就是先报读Masters，然后才BPTC。

但Masters in Law，说真的，我觉得有一点“废”。

更重要的是，我是不是真的想要当律师呢？

我是很喜欢读法律没错，但喜欢读法律和想成为一位律师是不同的。

至少，我从来都没憧憬过成为一位律师。只是，世俗的眼光总喜欢为读法律的学生定位为未来的大律师。

如果真的扪心自问，我想我真正憧憬的是在商场上打滚。

或许是因为家庭背景的影响，我知道以我的性格我不是很适合吃这行饭，但这是我向往的未来。

所以其实，我又有另一个分岔路可选－－Masters in Management。但是，实际考量，我不想放弃报读BPTC，毕竟那是个保障。

我想，这是我20年来第一次认真地思考自己的人生，第一次坦诚地面对自己的心，问自己究竟想要做什么，而不是应该做什么。

正如一般即将走出象牙塔的学生一样，我对未来充满了困惑。

其实我大可以瞇着眼乱选，怕只怕自己后悔。

所以脑子又突然有了另一个想法：拿一年的Gap Year。

眼前不是没有路，只是路太多，不知哪个才是我要走的。

朋友说过一句话，我很认同：你从来都不会知道你选的路对不对，直到你试了之后。

妈妈说过这样一句，我很认同：想做什么就去做什么。选择什么样的路都无所谓，反正也不会死。

真的，我想我想太多了。
我应该觉得很幸运，至少我并不是在一个穷得等着我赚钱的家庭。所以，我有资格走我喜欢的路。
未来，就自己斟酌，随自己的心走吧！反正也不会死。

－－－－－

今天，朋友失恋了。

我从来就不知道失恋能让一个人伤得多重。

但老套的还是那一句：Life goes on。

真的，没有了他，我想她还是能过得很好。

除非世界末日到来了，否则这小小的打击其实不足以你用一段很长的时间来痊愈。

反正没有了他，也不会死！

对了，明天是光棍节，祝刚失恋的或空窗期的人们单身快乐！

单身就单身呗，反正也不会死！

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有一种单身，叫做 “宁缺勿滥” 。。。

2010-10-29T23:46:00.002+01:00

无意间看到这篇很美的文章。它美在真真切切地写出了我的心声，所以就转载了下来。与所有单身的朋友共勉之。。。

－－－－－－

总有人问你，有对象没？

呵呵，没有呢。

不会吧，不可能吧 ……

其实，那是真的，不是没人追，没人要，只是没有合适的；不是眼光高，要求多，只是没有感觉的。也许有时想恋爱，想让自己不再寂寞，可是那个人却没有,不想随随便便的爱了。

有时候当自己静下心来会觉得自己的执着很可笑，为什么不去恋爱？为什么要让自己单身呢？难道是爱上了孤独爱上了寂寞吗？

其实不然，因为有一种单身叫“宁缺勿滥”。

他们对爱很专一也很执着,有自己独特的思想，能够坚持自己；在茫茫人海中只想找一个能让自己对上眼的人，也许在别人眼里那很傻，可是这样的傻只是想对得起自己的心；让自己孤独让自己寂寞就是不可以让自己随便和人恋爱；前世的500次回眸才换来今生的一次擦肩而过，这样的虚幻不去相信，缘分没有多少，要得只是感觉；不会轻易的去恋爱，不想去欺骗别人，也不想去骗自己，爱是纯洁的互相的，但如果一旦遇到那个他(她)就会坚持不懈，定下自己的心，绝不会花心，用心去爱。

每个人心里都有自己另一半的身影的，就算是勉强找到另一半的你，难道在你的心里除了他就没有另一个心底的人吗？在心里也会有对另一半的憧憬，希望彼此的遇见是一个浪漫美丽的邂逅；希望他是你的王子，但却不会沉迷于这种童话的幻想，只想要那份属于自己的真实邂逅，不会去痴迷于王子，只要我的那个他，只是想找个懂自己的愿意陪伴自己的。

当你有一天真正遇到那个他，两人的交往中绝对会为彼此设定底线，不会轻易越过；尊重爱情，尊重感情，尊重彼此，不会随便开始，但一旦开始，那么就会是最珍惜生活的人。因为他们相信爱。

当遇到一个喜欢自己但没有好感的人，会礼貌而尊重的对方说“对不起，我们不适合”，尊重自己的感情也是尊重别人的感情，不会让对方浪费时间，如果对方觉得朋友可以做，当然我很乐意。但想要改变我的想法，不可能，因为他们不会轻易让自己妥协，除非你是那个他。

有朋友说，现在的社会已经不流行宁缺勿滥了，应该是宁滥勿缺，可能那是对的，但我却不想改变，难道这样错了吗？

不想像别人那样轻易的爱了，轻易的让自己不孤单了，当结束一段又一段情时不会有任何伤感，因为那样的人没有用过情，确切的说他们不懂爱与被爱,他们会对所有的异性都有好感，不会执着与追求自己的那个他，相对于宁缺勿滥之人他们会更现实，也更会在恋爱中保护自己，因为分手后的他不会知道痛的感觉，他们不曾为爱付.而宁缺勿滥的人不是这样，他们从不会，会将一段情维持很长，哪怕结束时他们会伤心、痛苦、难过，但却曾经付出过，不会后悔，让自己刻骨铭心的爱，是需要用心去等待，哪怕是用一生。

孤独，不一定不快乐；

得到，不一定能长久；

失去，不一定不再拥有。

－自【*Oo爱情咖啡馆oO*】－

那一线之差。。。

2010-10-14T01:22:00.004+01:00

是羡慕，还是嫉妒？
是习惯，还是喜欢？

分不清，也不想分清。

我只知道很多人很多事情我都 take for granted，所以失去的时候，心里闷得一塌糊涂。

是时候放下那令人厌恶的傲慢了！

單純

2010-10-12T22:47:00.000+01:00

因為思慮過多，所以你常常把你的人生複雜化了。明明是活在現在，你卻總是念念不忘著過去，又憂心忡忡著未來；堅持攜帶著過去、未來與現在同行，你的人生當然只有一片拖泥帶水。

而單純是一種恩寵狀態。單純地以皮膚感受天氣的變化，單純地以鼻腔品嘗雨後的青草香，單純地以眼睛統攝遠山近景如一幅畫。單純地活在當下。

而當下其實無所謂是非真假。既然沒有是非，就不必思慮；沒有真假，就無須念念不忘又憂心忡忡。無是非真假，不就像在做夢一樣了嗎?是呀，就單純地把你的人生當成夢境去執行吧。

-转载自面子书某篇文章－

神奇的场所

2010-10-09T04:18:00.000+01:00

又一个狂欢的夜晚。

我从来就不知道为什么人们就这样喜欢去炸耳朵，去人挤人。

虽然不懂，但还是跟着朋友去了。

真是一个神奇的场所啊！

忽然大家都变得十分热情。

趁音乐大声得震耳欲聋时，不认识的彼此交头接耳地自我介绍，还很大方地拥有身体的接触。

趁酒精进入身体后，不是情侣的彼此贴身热舞得让人不得不以为他们是一对，触摸任何部分都好像是理所当然的。

几个小时后走出来，耳鸣得不得不问自己，其实我为什么要进去啊？

为什么要认识朋友一定要在这种不能够好好交谈的情况下呢？

为什么进去和出来的是同一个人，态度举止却截然不同呢？

不知道，但每个人都好像被下了诅咒一样，深信只有这个地方可以让他们得到快乐。

嗯，真的很神奇！

不禁想起《叶子》这首歌：

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单

Wake me up when September ends...

2010-10-01T16:37:00.000+01:00

And now September has ended. In a beautiful way. Time to wake up.
Well, it's not really as beautiful as you thought.
I never get to go Japan as I planned earlier.
I never get to learn horse-riding as I wished.
But it's good enough for not having any bad things happened during this summer.
At least nothing worse than what happened last summer.

So September has come to an end.
I'm flying off tomorrow - to the land I refuse to call it HOME.
But yeah, one thing to look forward is my brand new room.
Gonna spend a week or more to decorate it! woootss :)

Anyway, this is my third and final year for law degree.
Will write about it in my next post. So stay tuned.

At the moment, just a shoutout for myself: -

HELLO WAKE UP! SEPTEMBER ENDS. HOLIDAY ENDS. TIME TO SAY GOODBYE TO SUMMER AND A HELLO TO A BRAND NEW ACADEMIC YEAR!

Fate?

2010-09-15T16:40:00.001+01:00

I have many friends.
At least I do think so.
But when I'm down, I can't seem to find anyone to talk to.
I felt so helpless. But I learnt.
I learn to be strong. I learn to overcome everything by myself.
But hell, I hate the feelings of facing problem by myself.
The loneliness and the fear.

I mean, people do get emo at times.
It need not be any big matter for one to get emo.
And since it's not any big deal, you won't want to bother your family members.
Instead, I just need someone to be there to be my audience.
But I think I'm not significant enough, for my friends to put down their busy duties and listen to me.

Conclusion is??
Quote from my mum - It's time for you to find a boyfriend!
Haha.. If only doing is easier than saying.
But someone told me, the more desperate you are, the harder you will find one.
So I'll just leave everything to fate.

Yes, fate. where are you?

Many things going wrong recently...

2010-08-15T18:01:00.000+01:00

hope everything will be fine soon.
hope everything will not change.

And so..

2010-07-18T18:23:00.000+01:00

... the "curse" I mentioned in the post below, has finally been broken.
Finally get to meet up with this guy. And had a nice chat with him.
Great time =)

Flying back to Singapore soon for work.
Have a nice week ahead everyone ;)

熟悉又陌生的他

2010-07-08T23:16:00.001+01:00

有这么一位特别的朋友，对他很熟悉，也很陌生。

很久很久就知道他的存在，也从朋友那儿听过关于他的事。我承认，开始留意到他是因为他的外表（至少是我喜欢的那一型）。但从朋友那儿听过关于他的事，并不是什么好事，所以对他并没有好的印象，也没有想进一步认识的兴趣。

但缘分真的很妙。一个你并不在意或以为不会有交集的陌生人，某一天或许就会成为你生命中某位有意义的朋友。

后来，我们进了同一所学院。他和我读不同的课程，但是却和我另一位中学朋友同班。详细情况我有点记不清了，但就是莫名其妙地被传了绯闻，就这样和他牵扯上了关系。我讨厌被乱传绯闻，除了那次。哈哈！毕竟单从外表看来，他是我的那一杯茶嘛。我甚至曾经自恋地认为这段绯闻肯定“无风不起浪”。也因为那一段时间的绯闻，我开始重新注意到他。才发现，原来我在很久很久以前就有了他的MSN。至于谁先“邀请”谁加入帐号，我们都忘了，也都不重要了。重要的是，我们渐渐地都会在MSN和彼此聊天。在更进一步了解他之后，发现他并不像朋友说的那样不好。和他谈天也很舒服，渐渐地开始熟络了。

我说熟络，是很特别的一种熟络。我们在网上无所不谈，也常聊到深夜。但仅限网上。我们并不流行互传简讯。在学院里，我们也都只会对彼此点头附加一个微笑。

但不知从什么时候开始，每次上线会先留意他有没有在线上，或是不经意地等待他上线和他聊天。不知从什么时候开始，每次到学院都渴望遇到他，然后会不自觉地经过他有可能出现的地方，即便是只得到他的一秒微笑，都能让我一天的心情变好。

从电视剧的剧情来分析，这叫暗恋。是不是，我并不是很清楚，也已经不是很重要了。因为，我也不知道为什么，在忙着申请大学的那段时间，对他渐渐没有了当初那种悸动。后来进了大学，得知他有了女朋友，并没有太大的情绪起伏。我想，当初的感觉好像真的不见了。x相反地，感觉蛮开心的是，他并不像其他朋友一样，有了另一半就忽略其他朋友。至少到今天我们还保持联络。虽然他上线的时间相对地少了，但每次上线，我们都还可以无所不谈。

他可以归类成好朋友吗？我不知道。我只知道，他真的很特别。

特别在于，是他让我爱上星巴克的！上学院之前，我并不喝咖啡。我看他也没有想到吧，不经意地介绍我喝 Java Chip 后，我从此走进了星巴克和咖啡世界。然后，无法自拔。

特别在于，他总是在我没什么事的时候才上线和我聊天，总是那么恰巧地在我情绪低落或遇到高兴的事时不见踪影。肯定不是故意的，因为我并没有事先告知他，但就是这样刚巧。

更特别在于，除了几次都是我主动地传简讯关心他的现况外，至今我们都还只是在网上聊天。记得去年夏天，他在回澳洲的前几天约我去星巴克喝茶。终于有机会面对面说话了，但因为时间的不配合所以约会取消了。也就是说，认识他这么多年以来，我还未曾开口和他说过一句话！你不觉得很奇妙吗？我们并不是通过交友网站认识的朋友，在网上可以谈天说地，在现实生活中却完全没有和对方说过一句话！！为什么会这样？？哈哈我也不知道。

无论怎样，感谢他曾经给过我一些美好的回忆。感谢他至今还是我的朋友。也感谢他并没有忘了我。

祝福你的生活持续幸福，我特别的朋友！=)

突然很怀念。。。

2010-06-15T22:12:00.000+01:00

曾经拥有的时光。。
从前的生活。。

那时，我不是一个人。
现在，我必须独自承受压力。

很累。
很想放弃。
但不能。

曾经拥有你们的我，压力再大也有人靠。
曾经与我并肩的你们，现在又在哪里呢？

英国的考试，
真的会把一个人逼疯！！！

My twitter

2010-06-08T00:54:00.000+01:00

http://twitter.com/yittze

Those who have twitter, follow me.

Those who ha not have twitter, open an account now. else you will soon become out-dated.

haha jk. But yea, since more and more ppl using twitter now, I am resuming my account.

So ADD ME!!

Kthxbyee :)

You & Me.

2010-04-26T01:31:00.002+01:00

By Olivia Ong.
Nice song to listen, especially during exam period and when you stress. :)

Taking a trip down memory lane

Things have changed one thing remains

That they will always have each other

And even though those days have gone

They know here is where they belong

Theres some kind of magic in the air

Feel the warmth

That only summer breezes can bring

Sweet little notes of spring begin

Nothing to fear

Taking one step at a time

Walking hand in hand

1 2 3 4 Cheek to cheek

And they're learning how

to do the dance

Let this love be forevermore

they say

I wish for this to be

true for you and me

Holding her close he leading the way

Out at the park enjoying the day

And you can tell they'll be okay

Feel the warmth

That only summer breezes can bring

Sweet little notes of spring begin

Nothing to fear

Taking one step at a time

Walking hand in hand

1 2 3 4 Cheek to cheek

And they're learning how

to do the dance

Let this love be forevermore

they say

I wish for this to be

true for you and me

You will know how I feel now..

2010-04-20T01:13:00.001+01:00

if you lost something twice.

Okay, I know I'm super-extremely-very blur!
But try focus on your works for few hours, then relax. You will find yourself very stupid in doing anything. The brain is just not functioning the moment you plan to relax. And that is the time you always will lost your thing.

I've learnt - no use crying over the spilt milk. The next one, I promise I will take 200% extra care of it.
Damn I'm broke now.

and sorry parents. i will earn back all the money i spent once i graduate. this i promise you. :)

随笔写。。

2010-04-07T16:56:00.000+01:00

整一个月没有更新网志了。

刚和家人到中国和香港玩了两个星期。很开心，真的。但同时，很讨厌在最后一天再度离别的感觉。讨厌欢乐过后的那一阵落寞，那股感觉又要回到现实面对烦人压力的失落。

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春天了，是恋爱的季节吧！身旁的朋友一个个地谈起了恋爱。算算下，自己的年龄也不是很小了。至少已经到了该有初恋的时候吧。在加上处在异乡，特别想要有个人在身旁对我呵护倍加。尤其是在压力大时，想要有个人能够无条件地听你倾诉，替你分担。啊! 我的他，何时会出现呢？

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我们都长大了，中学毕业后大家都开始忙着自己的生活，为了理想渐渐地分道扬镳。有些以前蛮熟的朋友也很少联络了。最近尝试上网找他们聊天，发觉有些还是一样，虽然在不同的地方认识了很多新朋友经历了很多新事物，和我这个老朋友谈话时还是不改我们都熟悉和习惯的口气。但有些，变了。变得很陌生。那种陌生是会让人心痛的。明明以前就是无所不谈的好朋友，几年的时间就能彻底地将那段友谊给稀释了。当你以为友谊是很坚固时，原来，友谊是那么脆弱的。或许我们都长大了，都不可能回到从前。正如大人不可能再花一个下午的时间无忧无虑地玩泥巴一样。

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这星期六和朋友到巴黎去。最近爱上了旅行，喜欢到各个地方看不一样的东西。喜欢旅行，也可能因为只有这样才可以名正言顺地将所有在学业上的压力给抛之脑后。。

假期快乐！

记2010全英赛！

2010-03-13T14:56:00.004Z

人看羽球，我看羽球。人家严肃地分析着那些我听不懂的策略，我却想在看演唱会一样。以往看全英赛都只是透过大荧幕，今年有幸成为现场观众之一。我只能说，真的是大饱眼福。

话说，昨夜的疯狂，即使今天起床后还意犹未尽。很久没有这么疯狂过了，而且还是这么幼稚白痴的疯狂。

为了一个超可爱的羽球选手，我和朋友们简直变成了粉丝，坐在一个看不到比赛只看得到他休息的地方，等着他出来要他的签名。够白痴的。到最后，他并不理会我们，但至少有斜眼留意到我们。哈哈！我们负气地决定不要喜欢他，但到他上场比赛时却无可自拔地喜欢他。白痴！！！

还有就是，昨晚的复赛结束后，已经是半夜12点了。我们却宁愿错过最后一班火车的时间，也不想错过拿到马来西亚选手签名的机会。某副部长答应了带我们去见所有马来西亚选手，却在比赛结束后人影无踪。我想这本来就是他们平时的作风吧！只怪我们太笨，一再上当！最后，我们决定到一个从体育馆到酒店的必经之路等候。

结果真的皇天不负有心人，盼来了黄宗翰。他很友善，替我们签名还和我们合照。不久，又遇到李宗伟。一样的反应，第一时间向他索取签名。朋友知道他从槟城来，灵机一动和他说了一段福建话，结果他也回了一段福建话。碍于第二天有场硬战，他必须早点回酒店休息了。所以没能和我们合照。但这样也已经够了，能够这么近距离看到我们国家的光荣。

在回家的路上，朋友说，李宗伟人真好，“逮”他拿“拿督”的，即使变成了公众人物，却一点架子也没有。打完比赛后有一大班疯狂粉丝向他索取签名，他即使不想给，也微笑着边走边挥手。在回酒店的途中，看到我们，也愿意停下来签名。

重点是--昨晚黄宗翰和李宗伟在我的纸上签名时，是类似握着我的手的（就，我拿着我的纸，他们拿着我的手）哈哈！！自爽-ing! 够幼稚够白痴lohh!

黄宗翰的:)

李宗伟的 :)

大马男双选手之一- 颜德财的:)

记得最后一次这么"发俏"是在王力宏演唱会上。他握了我的手，让我高兴了好几天。还有在演唱会后，在他住的酒店房间附近逗留了很久。。。哈哈！没办法，王力宏的魅力真的没法挡！尤其是在看了他真人后。。。

话说回来，昨天真的是什么矜持都没有了。但人不疯狂枉少年！

Little thing that makes me smile ...

2010-03-08T00:27:00.001Z

虽然不认识你。刚刚在寻找着《曙光》时，偶然发现你的部落格。在读过你的部
落格后，心里也有所感触。因为我的外公也是前几天过世，而外公临终前的遭遇
也和你外婆很相近。但你比我幸运的是，你跟外婆的感情还不错，而我就是和外
公有代沟的那种。现在反而才觉得遗憾，因为再也没机会了。不过，我相信你的
外婆在天之灵，一定会保佑你们一家的。身在外地的你，好好照顾自己吧！

Visited my old chinese blog after so long, and found this comment from an annonymous on a post.

So heart-warming.

Thank you, although I don't know who you are.

:)

My biological clock ...

2010-02-27T22:42:00.000Z

goes up-side-down again!

I slept at 6am last ~~night~~. But I still manage to wake up before noon passed. Just that, I have no moood to do anything for the whole day, apart from watching youtubes. The addictions towards youtubes is coming back again...shyt.

Anyway, I just counted the days, only to realise that tomorrow is the last day of CNY.What will my family do tomorrow? Must be another great meal with lots of gossips and good laughs. Well, it's just anther normal day here, as there is no cny atmosphere at all here. I didn't do lots of things that I would normally do during cny. Like mahjong with relatives. Like movies marathon with cousins and brothers. Like meeting all the relatives gather in my house and turn my house into a morning market. Like receiving angpaus from uncles aunties. Like wearing nice RED dresses. Like laugh like nobody's business listening to all the lame jokes by my brothers. Like house hopping with bunch of friends. I miss doing those things alot. And also, I miss the fooooood. I miss the yee sang!

Okay enough of cny. It will be over like reallllly soooon anyway.

As for now, I have 3 assignments to complete during easter break. But foreseeing that I will not have the mood to lock myself in the room for the assignments during holiday, I need to complete at least one before the break. Can I? Procrastination please stop haunting me!

O.o

Life's wonderful.

2010-02-14T14:44:00.001Z

Decided to delete the previous post, because I think I should not be so 'fui' on the first day of CNY.
Afterall, it's just a phone. If you compare to something more valuable, like life, like friends, like family.

I just realised I was so stupid to be emo over a phone for a whole night.
Life's great. It's wonderful and I shouldn't have ask for more, for afterall I am not losing anything precious in my life.
Especially my family.
They are always always the ones I treasure the most in my life.
Was talking to them this morning.
Mum said, "Aiyo..lost phone only mah, not boyfriend also...haha!"
Dad said, " Go use credit card and buy another one la...treat it as a gift I give you..!"
Brother A said, " Go go go search for iPhone, it's damn good...or blackberry touchscreen one...haiyorr you ahh, lost d buy again only la...."
Brother B asked mum to tell me, "Go search for latest google phone, Nexus or sth like tht...apparently it's quite good..."

Just when they kept passing the phone and talked to me one by one, my tears dropped again.
I feel blessed.
I feel loved.
I know I should not be down just for the phone.
I should be happy for I always have a cheering family.

Anyway, I am going to York tomorrow. Will enjoy my trip. And I'm using a temporary number now. Anyone wants it, please do leave a comment or in the chatbox I'll send u guys the number.

Lastly not forgetting to thanks people who are trying hard to cheer me up, especially Tuanleng. But I have to say your way of comforting a girl really quite fail la....cuz even he tried to comfort, he used his typical debating style to comfort...and you will be damn za dou...hahah but afterall, the funny way of his put a smile on my face. So yeah Thanks. (if you "accidentally" click into my blog and read it)

Thanks to Juanying, June and others as well. Love you guys. <3

Have a happpy chinese new year everyone!!

And Have a sweet Valentine's day as well.

Love.

Sometimes time doesnt wait.

2010-02-10T22:43:00.004Z

But I've stubbornly waited.
Don't ask me how long has it been, I have no idea since when does the wait starts.

Snow falls, rain pours, sun shines...

I see cars moving, see the kids playing, see the dancer dancing on the stage.

The earth is turning, the world is operating as usual.

Just when I think everything is moving and so everything is changing,

No, something don't.

Perhaps,

I should be glad.

You are always there, never walk out.

Because you are always there, never even try to walk in.

Perhaps,

I should say thank you.

You are not hurting me, intentionally.

Because you do not even bother my feelings, unintentionally.

So just continue with your happy life.

And I will enjoy my current life as well.

So just let the world changes, with something remains.

And no one will get hurt in the end.

Because I have 2 evil friends...

2010-02-07T21:52:00.000Z

Hereby,
Introduce you my new baby!

Queen Couture Day Dreamer Bag

I actually stole this photo form some website...because my camera's quality is NOT GOOD, or maybe I have no skill in taking photo...hahah

Anyway here is my baby,with really bad photo quality:

People might be wondering, wahhh since when Yit Tze buy stuff by herself? As you all know, I do not really buy myself ANYTHING except when with parents...haha. For this, I didn't intend to buy anyway. This was the story happened today:

Was with friends in Selfridges. A friend wanna buy the JC bag so we went to the shop. I was totally fall in love with this bag but I was telling myself not to buy it. I asked my friend to buy it so I won't have the craving to buy as I don't really like to have same bag with my friends. But she chosen another one. Argh! Then the two friends of mine were like keep on persuading me to buy, and kept saying this bag was SO ME. Gosh how on earth I have these two evil friends!! So finally, first time in my life I bought a branded bag myself!! Of course, still by dad's money...Lol. Aiyah daddy mummy, I am treating this as a CNY present for myself anyway, okay right =p

I am satisfied now. Next week plan : SAVE MONEY. Spent too much these days=..=

Okay, time to study now. Enough of pampering myself. Have to work harder in my studies as well =)

大学生活。。。

2010-02-04T20:55:00.006Z

穿着厚厚的外套或帽衫在寒风中步行到学校、拿着手提电脑在图书馆里赶论文、拿着一杯咖啡走去上课的讲堂、趁两节课之间的空档和朋友喝茶聊天。。。这些，都是我在中学时期时对大学生活的幻想。而现在，这些都成真了。它真的发生在我的生活里了。我喜欢这样的大学生活，因为这种生活步调像极了那些小说的情节。这理由有点荒唐，但事实确实如此。正如我喜欢下雪天，是拜韩国偶像剧所赐。

撇开这些无聊的小细节不说，大学生活真的没有什么，除了那一座山高的法律书本，还有做不完的功课，和一篇篇很不想去做的论文。你可以说我在催眠自己，但是如果只想着那接踵而来的压力，我想我应该在大学里呆不下去了。但是，我喜欢穿着厚厚的外套或帽衫在寒风中步行到学校，我喜欢拿着手提电脑在图书馆里赶论文、我喜欢拿着一杯咖啡走去上课的讲堂、我喜欢趁两节课之间的空档和朋友喝茶聊天，我喜欢这种大家都认为微不足道的却是我憧憬的生活。正是对于大学还有这一些些美好的向往，让我在面对自己也不明白为何要面对的压力和挑战下，依然心甘情愿的呆在大学里。

很多人都抱怨为什么人生要那么辛苦，为什么大学生的压力那么大。其实，换个角度去想一件事，结果会截然不同。上大学的理由不一定是严肃的。或许我的理由很天真愚蠢，但，是谁去定义什么是愚蠢，什么是精明？

找一个自己喜欢的点，做自己喜欢的，是最能够说服自己坚持下去的理由。

My current addictions:

2010-02-02T23:49:00.008Z

1. Fireflies - Owl City.
I guess you guys should have listen to it before, it is so so so hit! ~And yes it is nice, it is a must-listen-song! :)

I'd rather to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to stay that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

2. Take a Bow - Glee Cast
I am watching GLEE at the moment, and I'm totally in love with this song. Apparently it is a better version than the Rihanna's, at least this is what I think. Haha...and it's now my message ringtone :)

Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it's over now, go on and take a bow

3. 匿名的朋友 - 杨丞林
I am watching this series at the moment as well, nice series. And I love this song...very "got feel". Good job, 陈颖见 the composer fo the song. He is a msian singer, not a popular one, but is one of my favourite because I think his songs all quite nice :)

不能握的手　从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能我的手　却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

4. 小星星- 王心凌
I know you must be saying that I'm crazy for "chasing" so many series...but yeah, this is a song from a series I recently finish watching - 桃花小妹. Haha not a very good one, but this song is really nice.....listen it:)

天黑的時候　我远远陪著你
再小的闪烁　也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现　
希望我眨眼能感动你视线

Listen if you have nothing better to do.

Have a goood day.

Loves.

Announcement!

2010-02-02T20:35:00.000Z

Actually it's not any important announcement.
It's just that,

I've decided to stop blogging on my chinese blog - 心境 .
I started this chinese blog at my 17th birthday. I appreciated this blog very much, as it recorded many of my life and my secrets of these few years. But now I've decided to stop blogging there as I do not really have time to maintain 2 blogs when I have mountain high of law books to read. Haha.

So this means that from now on, the chinese posts and english posts will be blogged in this particular blog, the "Foreva Princess" blog, by the princess. hehe.=)

Stay tune, posts will be up really sooon.
:)

Call me nerd,

2010-01-23T00:43:00.000Z

I'm totally cool with it!

=== ...===
Constitutional test is finally over. Have been nerd-ing for a week plus. When I say "nerd-ing" I seriously mean it. Have you ever try to like really indulge in the book till the night time fall without you noticing, till the dinner time passed without noticing you were hungry. Gosh I've experienced it these few weeks. Stayed in Costa or library forom day time till night time, facing my laptop and the books. And surprisingly, I am quite loving such kind of life style. Even after the exam.

So, call me nerd. I'm totally cool with it. Heee!

Of course, need to relax also. I am giving myself a total holiday for this weekend. Will do nothing but just go shopping and watch series all days for at least these two days. Nerd,though wont be as nerd as the days before test, life style will be resumed next week.

:)

i hate exam.

2010-01-13T16:27:00.001Z

have been sitting down and facing the book for about 2 hours + and just roughly finished 1 chapter ( not in detail and leaving alot of question marks). ahhh. i am so so confused by this uk consitutional thing. if only i can choose not to study this module. but anyway at least i studied something. better than zero progress.

i skipped my lunch anyway. not in purpose. but really too int the book already just now. till forgot the time. award myself with 2 chocolates, and some fruits. to relax and i guess chocolate has the destressing function. no? anyway i miss starbucks now. i think i will have mood to study with a cup of coffee rather than being so dull just sitting in my room accompanied by the snow outside. help me help me. too much to study, too little time. ok i know i have been procrastinating all the time. but still, too little time!

gonna proceed to another chapter now. hope i can finish this chapter by tonight. so i can finish the remaining 2 big chapters and 1 small chapter by the weekend. and then start reading on the thicky thick textbooks to add in more info for the remianing three days before exam on thursday. perfect plan. not done by a perfect person thus hardly succeed. aih. will see how it goes. wish me luck.

and dinner time do arrive sooner. so i can watch my series while having my dinner. i need to reallllly destressssss man. ok ok enough. go study now. chiao.

When the Snow meets Chocolate ...

2010-01-09T20:18:00.002Z

Slept at 8.30pm yesterday. Woke up at 4.30 am. Exactly 8 hours. Had never been practising such good habit in my life.

Well, this year is really scary. I mean the weather. Yes the weather is freaking. Keep snowing like nobdy business. The frequency is really out of my expectation. This is what I saw from my window:

I love ~~pink!~~ white. Love the pureness. Love how it actually beautifies(got such word? ahh u understd wut i meant la) the whole country.

But I hate walking on the snow. It is so slippery!! Luckily I did not need to chase the bus today, otherwise I sure fall. What is worse is when the snow/water/ice get into your boots, and your feet are freezing, you actually can do nothing but keep walking and let more snow/water/ice to freeze your feet.

Despite having this love-hate-relationship with the snowy snow, I've bought a new phone today!! Finally.
Eh I've been loyal enough okay. I've been using the Sony Ericsson K810i for three years or more, I guess seldom have people hit this record nowadays. Well, bye-bye to the old baby...now here comes my new baby:

LG New Chocolate BL20

Paid £140 for the phone, with the O2 simplicity Pay & Go plan (simcard only). So £20 per months for 700 minutes and 700 messages and unlimited internet. I like the fact that I am not bound by any contract since the phone is already exclusively mine. So I can actually terminate the plan anytime I want. And it is an unlocked phone, which means I can use even back in Msia. =)

So yeah, this is my new baby. Please treat me good, will you? haha

Anyway I am sleepy now. Jet-lag again aihhh....Either continue my assignment or bang myself into my bed. Bye.

Because B is for Burberry!

2010-01-03T11:39:00.004Z

Received 2 branded bags in my life so far.

One is the Juicy Couture bag, my birthday present from my friends in UK.

Another one is Burberry, just received from my beloved parents! :)

The '09 Winter Collection Burberry Nova Heart Bag and the Classic Burberry Wallet.

Nice rightttt....!! Couldn't love my parents more...hahah muackzzz...
Mum said, if you wanna repay us, please lose weight! Hahaha yes I will!
~~Okay, maybe "3-minute-hot-temperature" only~~.
No no I will do it, if not it will be a waste to put on any branded stuff on my body!
heeeeee.....

Thank you dad and mum! A good start of 2010 by receiving an awesome new year present!
=)

Photo of the day :

@ Starhill. With mum and my youngest nephew who looks like the Astroboy! =)

It's ...

2010-01-01T11:33:00.003Z

Happpy New Year everyone!

Not going to do a long post for this. All the thank-yous and sorrys, I suppose people involved should get the message.

Last year(2009) had been a normal year for me, nothing for me to be proud of, except that I'm still surviving.
Anyway, New Year must have new resolutions. Right now I have only one resolution : LOSE WEIGHT! ~~haha..~~ Don't laugh. Am serious. Well, I know I need to have great determination and motivation. But hrmm... I will do it! Deadline for myself - till CNY. And by that time only will I proceed to more and other resolutions.

So yeah, good luck to myself.

p/s: for my another new year post, kindly click here.

And peeps, Have a great 2010 ahead! :)

I'm updating ...

2009-12-27T01:49:00.001Z

for the sake of updating.=p

     2 weeks of my holiday just gone like river flowing. Frankly speaking, I've never really done anything apart from facing laptop and facing the screen of cinema. Weird I can actually still watching series till late night thinking there's still assignment and readings to be completed. I love how this stress-yet-relax mode works in me.Though it is leading me to nowhere except keep procrastinating.

     Bahhhh....who cares! It's my holiday afterall.

     Well, will finish my assignment before new year. As for reading, I will just crash it few days before the exam I guess. Hopefully everything will be alright.
=)

     Oh anyway, Avatar, Sherlock Holmes and Bodyguards & Assassins are good movies! Will be watching The Treasure Hunt later, with a very low expectation though.

Good Sunday! :)

Announcement:

2009-12-10T00:07:00.002Z

I'm back in Malaysia!!! :)

   Okay, I know the first reaction of almost everyone will be, "WTH, aren't you just got back not long time ago?" or "too rich dy isit, go there for so short and then fly back again!".

   First of all, I am wondering what so big deal for coming back during Summer and also Winter. I mean like, come on, apparently not only me who does so, a lot of Malaysians are also like that what. My HK and Spore friends even fly back during Easter too.

   Secondly, the reasons I'm coming back is because most of my housemates will not be around, and I have tonnes of workloads that I can't bother to go travelling with other friends. Realising that the nearest place I could go is the beautiful but sad university campus, plus the superb UK weather, I don't want myself to die emoing in my room. So yea, here I am in my HOME country to finish my assignments and readings, and at the same time, de-stress. Since then, it is nothing really relevant with you guys, friends out there who think I'm crazy for keep on coming back. Disclaimer here: not bearing any responsibility if I am absent for any meet ups or gatherings. Afterall, I'm not intended to attend because I have lots of stuff to do. So yeah, stop zat-ing me for that and just treat as if I'm still in UK.

   Thank you for your patience.

   Cheers.

*btw, my first night in msia during this winter break was really fun. Glad that I have such loving family!* :)

It's December!

2009-12-01T17:11:00.003Z

Like finally.

And on this first day of the month,
Lisbon Treaty comes into force, according to my EU seminar tutor.

But that wont interest you anyway.

Something more important has happened!

Hometown Hainan Coffee is in Kota Damansara now !!!

No photos at the moment till I go back. So be patient. And at the mean time, go support!!! :)

Hehe....:p

Good day !

I'm just wondering ...

2009-11-28T00:22:00.000Z

why some friends who I used to close with,

are now not close at all already.

Hrmmm....

I tried, I failed.

2009-11-21T20:48:00.001Z

I thought I can adapt to a new place well. I guess I've been too over-confident. After a year in UK, I'm regret to say that I still not used to the life here. I've tried to enjoy the life here, but failed. I feel so insignificant sometimes, till I don't think anyone will give a damneven if I suddenly disappear one day.

Maybe I've been pampered for too long before this. Was a princess since born, loved by parents and brothers. Even the friends in Malaysia, I know they cared about me alot. I can feel the warmth and joy whenever being with them. And I know I can turn to them whenever I need someone. Here, everyone seems to enjoy their lives so much, and I'm the only left out. What I can feel is only the cold weather with the strong wind...

Guess I will never learn how to be independent, how not to cry, how to be strong. I know I'm such a lousy girl. I've nothing good, I've nothing for myself to be proud of and stand confidently. I'm nobody. At least I know I'm nobody here.

After crapping so much, I know I still need to hang in there, for another 2 years in a place I refuse to call it a h-o-m-e.

Bear with my emoish mood, ppl.

Sign off.

Friday the 13th

2009-11-13T17:27:00.001Z

is a bad-luck-day because of the day and the date, they said.

But I'm still here trying my luck of getting some opinions on an assignment of mine:

International law is not law in any meaningful sense of the term. It is best understood as a branch of international politics.

hehe=P

Fyi ( to those who are not law students), international law is basically dealing with the issues of international especially international disputes and wars.

Hahah, welcome any useful and useless opinions.

Much appreciated.

:)

So, why Law?

2009-11-02T23:41:00.001Z

Met a Singaporean friend in Costa. Both of us were trying to study there while waiting for the lecture time.

Then she came to this question: "Actually why are we studying law?" Because we love law? We love reading cases? we love reading regulations? Crap, who wouldn't want a better and more relaxing life? Undoubtedly, I have interest in law, but I can't see myself as a lawyer in the future. I thought I would be in business world next time. So Yeah, why am I still choosing such a heavy course. I remembered I told mum before, that if I choose courses relating to Design, I would always stay in cafes enjoying the life with a cup of coffee and magazines. Yes I love this kind of life! And if I choose courses relating to Maths, I would have life of "keep doing" instead of "keep reading", which I find life will be easier then.

Okay, so why am I choosing Law? Am I regretting?

Frankly speaking, I don't really know why am I always love burdening myself. Just like during secondary school, I could have chosen a simple and relaxed life, but I joined debate and had 5 years of hectic life. Where people were away for holidays, I had to stay for competitions and society's stuff. Just like during SPM, I can choose for the minimum subjects, but instead I've chosen 13 subjects to sit in SPM. I know I was a freak for taking up so many subjects without any valid reasons. But now looking back, I am proud of myself, for being able to go through all these when others have no chance to. Did I ever regret? No, not even a second. Let me choose again, I will choose to remain the same!

I am stubborn enough to always choose a harder route instead of a more relaxing one. I am not sure why so, but one think I'm sure of -- that I won't regret for choosing it. I've foregoed my right to have a relaxing life. I've chosen a life full of judgments, assignments and readings. I knew the 3 years in UK gonna be tough for me, especially when I'm not good in English. I knew it before I chose it. You can either interpret it as I'm too brave to take up challenge, or I'm too stupid in making choices. Haha.

I love law, not as a career, but as one of my interests. I love learning and understanding it. But I hate memorising it, that's why I hate sitting for law examination. But who loves it? So just bear with it, do your best, and move on!

I love law, I have no regret choosing it.
I am having a heavier life when I have a lighter option, but I have no regret.
I'm ready for the challenges. Good luck to myself! :)

Totally random.

2009-10-22T23:05:00.001+01:00

Named this as "Totally random", because I've no idea what title should I put. Frankly speaking, I'm here updating my blog not because I feel like writing down something, but I've nothing better to do now. So it's totally out of structure, and nothing really important. So read it only when you are like me, nothing better to do. xD

Me dislike Thursday. The timetable just almost driving you crazy: 9-10am, 3pm-6pm. In between the long gap, I decided not to go home. And fyi, my house is actually quite near to uni, but I'm just tooo lazy to walk back / wait for a bus. So I went to Costa Coffee alone, and guess what? I actually S-t-u~~-dent-~~d-i-e-d! For 2 hours, I've only talked to the boook, till Linda came. Hahah....:p

I'm quite proud of myself because I've started to study even it's only week 3 now. And this did not happen back in last year=p Although I never hit the target I set out for myself everyday due to my slowness in reading and comprehensing, at least I read quite cnsistently so I won't lost track on every modules. Oh well, I'm not nerd. Just that I've promised myself to STUDY CONSISTENTLY this year. And I hope I can maintain it at least till this year end, otherwise I would definitely regret when exam comes.

Alright, you can't blamed me but I was actually not concentrating on the last lecture today. Kept thinking of the December plan. Hahah... I'm not going back to Msia this year end. And I'm trying to persuade Y.Cheng bro to come over. Ivan bro asked me to go USA as he will go and meet his gf on dec, but I've got no Visa, and I can only travel for 2 weeks as I need to study for the other 2 weeks(no choice, got exam after the break =.=). And he made me felt excited for few seconds when he told me he's going to Japan also. But then it will be on January, and by that time, uni going to resume. -_-

So, where else can I go?? I want to travel!!!! Hahah, whoever staying in uk during winter break, tell me your plan okay!! ;)

***********************

Okay, I know this is random, but yeah - out of my expectation, I always think of Grandma ever since I came here. Many many little things actually reminded me of her, even the pillow that I bring it along with me here, it was sewed by her. Guess we always know to treasure something only when it's gone. Miss you lots.

***********************

Okay, guess I've run out of things to update already. Will just post some random photos (all not clear cuz they were taken by camera that is less than 5 megapixels :p) :

Maahhhh new coat! Love the colour but it's super easy to get dirty x.x

This is always what I will do when I'm getting bored of studying...=P

My crazy darling in University of Warwick!

Okay till then, Stay cheered!!

and Young! xP

My 19th!

2009-10-17T23:19:00.002+01:00

The celebration was great.

The gang of Malaysian friends

My favourite Tiramisu cake

My dream bag (Juicy Couture)

What else can I complained??

Thank you guys, for making me feel loved, and cheering up my day.

p/s: Chinese version of birthday post : click here

Long time since I ever felt being pampered :)

2009-10-15T18:51:00.001+01:00

Finally done with my hectic day.

As usual, I on my facebook once I reached my room.

Nothing different except that my page is already flooded with wishessss.

It's not the time yet here in UK,

but seeing the wishes really makes me feel warm.

Especially after a long day staying in uni from 9am to 6pm,

and I'm already exhausted.

I smiled.

From the bottom of my heart.

Thank you guys.

It might mean nothing for you guys,

but it meant alot to me.

Must-watched-Videos!

2009-09-27T18:06:00.009+01:00

This is freaking Awesome~!

If you noticed, all sang by the SAME person!

And this, is... speechlessly Amazing!!!

Don't tell me you don't impressed by the videos above.

Enjoy! :)

The current blog song.

2009-09-20T12:14:00.008+01:00

I simply love this sweet song - <爱一直存在> by 梁文音.

那天我扬起帆  
想看看未知的海 
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来 

天空一样蔚蓝
却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百  
是否为我等待 

** 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 
没有你泪停不下来 
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye 
我痛说不出来 

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 
没有你快乐都停摆 
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱都在 **

站在你的门外
我却幸福在徘徊 
心里很多话想说说不出来  
但我想你一定都明白

时间过的好快  
想念却不曾更改 
现在的你是否幸福百分百  
我应该怎么猜

**


爱一直存在

A Great Friday.

2009-09-14T17:09:00.006+01:00

Drove to Mont Kiara alone. Spent my afternoon @ Biz Cafe. Quite a cool place :)

But a bit pity right to go there alone, like...Alone wehhh... hahah

Luckily, I was not lonely there.
Was accompanied by:

Hot Latte and my book.

And and....

The sinful yet lovely Tiramisu !!!

Due to the guilt I felt later on, planned to skip dinner and so never get to join the Gang for dinner. Planned to skip the K session also, but then a phone call received:

" Wei, farewell me worr....don't want come mehh.." by Tuan Leng.

" The debate Cd is with me, you don't come then it will fly away d. " by Tuan Leng again.

" Wei... so many people ask you come also mm bei minn mehhh...." by Victor Gu.

" Ehh come accompany me la...xxx xxx xxx also will come" by Jia Yann.

So then I went, with my brother and Hui Peng. Lol, brother actually get tricked by me since I told him we go out yum char when he was half way rushing assignment. Blekkss...

So my supposed-to-be-an-ordinary night turned to a Crazyyyy night. :)
Check out photos posted in facebook.

And yes, reached home at about 4 again....=p

Cheers~~! For our friendship!

UM debate show

2009-09-09T17:12:00.004+01:00

It's been awhile since last watched a debate show. Oh the feeling is darn good, seeing people debating on the stage. I miss those days, when I was the one standing on the stage rebutting what the opponents' point. Enjoyed the show in UM although they were a bit too "careful" in talking about the politics, if not the show could be more interesting.

Some of them are my Idols in debate.

And this is one of them, Victor Gu. (ignore the 3 fellas beside=p)
I have to admit, he's still quite handsome afterall, although he has gained alot of weight compared to last time. hahah...

After the debate, went to KL for supper with the Gang.

And no, this was not how much we ate. We ate way much MORE than what you see. Lolz....

Had a good chat, talking about the debate just now, politics, studies, ppls' 8 gua, and the society's history and all the arguments we had last time.

And the time flies.
Reached home nearly 4am.

And I slept at 7am this morning.

Time's terbalik again.
But who cares. Holiday marhhhh...hahah
:D

Weird dream.

2009-08-30T03:46:00.004+01:00

I dreamt about him and her, two friends who are not related at all.The only similarity between them is they are both richhhhhh. Okay, story goes like this:

*

Me and my family, with my Superstar cousin who were supposed to be in Taiwan for Taiwanese series shooting, went Tai Thong to eat SUSHI(wth). Then met him and her with their own families, and they were about to leave. So I asked the girl how her family get to know the guy's family. She said, their families were competitors in and Art related business.And they were discussing (or negotiating?) about business stuff. (I'm amazed by my super creative mind lor...haha)

*

Oh well, the girl is supposed to be in Australia studying now! Guess I'm just miss her too much =p

What a weird dream.

just an emo post.

2009-08-25T15:00:00.006+01:00

sometimes, i just think that i'm suck.
in terms of everything.
inferiority is haunting me.
but i just couldnt help myself out.
no one is perfect.
but the imperfection in everything of my life.
seriously annoying.
whats wrong with me?
i guess i'm suck.

i'm just too lazy to entertain people when i'm moody.
and weird, but i wish for someone to talk to me.
oh well...
he wouldn't know it.
i wouldn't tell.
it's the inferiority of mine again.
i know i'm suck.

Weekend in 1U

2009-08-23T16:40:00.007+01:00

Saturday

Went to Monsoon-id with brother. He had his hair cut, and I did my hair treatment. The salon is quite good I think.

Before going back, we went "tan cha" @ Gardens Cafe.

The always-ban-yeng brother=p

and...

The always-camwhore me =D

with the lovely Flower tea :)

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Sunday

Went to 1U GSC cinema for the movie "Overheard". Specially thankssss to the "lame+perasan+self-claimed sor chai" guy. lol:p Ermmm, the movie was not bad, but I think I over estimated the movie.

And then, had a walk and lil shopping there since we both got no plans after the movie. How sad. But overall, not bad la, at least there's someone with to kill the time.

No photos taken.

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Well, thats the weekend of mine, spending most of the time in the shopping mall named 1 Utama. =)

Nice food, nice environment, nice people.

2009-08-20T08:46:00.015+01:00

Friends complaining that the Food Trip's photos were flooding their FB homepage, haha but who cares. It's an awesome trip that I enjoyed it very much. Ate from Kuala Selangor, to Sitiawan, then Penang, Ipoh, and then KL. So yea, it was supposed to end on Sunday since few of us need to become judge for CHS debate competition. but right after the competition, we went to Bukit Tinggi for lunch, then Genting for tea, and then back to Serdang for dinner. So we extended our food trip "accidentally".=p

So anyway, thanks to our leader, Victor Gu, for making the trip a success:

and all the fellow members:

=) (only yee cheng and victor is not in the photo)

For the details of the trip, refer to #1; #2; #3; #4; #5; #6; #7. Read following the sequence ya. And credits go to Clement =)

Thanks to the gang, you guys gave me a lot of fun.

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17/8

Someone said he didn't have work that night, so we thought to have dinner at 7 something. Then, someone said he was doing some recording and might be late, blaming at other people. Lol. Then already quite late, the crazy one suggested to go to somewhere so far.

So yea, with the same gang again, we went to the Gasoline@the LookOutPoint there to celebrate his birthday. At least the day not yet over when we reached there.=p Anyway, sorry for not buying any cake, but you shuld be glad that we bought you an Armani Exchange's cap. Talking about politics, making fun of the someone's target... the night was great.

Once again, Happy Birthday to the someone:

Gan Jiang Han!

Since you're a public figure now, shouldn't zat you so much, at least here.=p
Wish you good luck in your career, and also your love life la ya..hehe
And remember the promise, the big meal you owed to me and my brother.
Muahhahah...

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18/8

Lunch with the CHS-ians, Jun Hau and Yen Chung in Prince Cafe @ SS2.

Dinner with the Warwick-ians, Tony, Roy and Zee in Vincenzo @ One Bangsar.

Supper (2 glasses of Chinese Tea) with the Gang in "Long Si Fu" @ SS2.
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Other updates are coming...chill.
Till then...

Cheers! :)

My beloved nephew's concert

2009-08-18T18:29:00.010+01:00

When people was preparing to go to Eason's concert, I went to another superstar's concert.

Who? Who? Who?

Yea, him -

Aidan Koh!!!

Hahah...=p

If you noticed, he's the only one who shakes his "spider" when everyone shaking their body...hahah..

Thanks to him, I had a goood laugh that morning. =)

Concentrating on his Thomas cars....

So, he is my eldest nephew.

The future Star!

Not forgetting my another two nephews....

Will have another post on one of them sooon...=)

Anyway, remind me of the princess dancing on the stage for tadika concert :

(^.^)

Astro.

2009-08-03T05:03:00.003+01:00

What a good morning.

Went to CHS, supposed to become judge for 4 competitions..
But right after the first one, dragged by Jh to fetch him to Astro...
Swt enough, okay so....I become his driver all of sudden..hahah

No money paid.

But what good is, he tour guided me in the Astro building..
So I get to see a lot of paople, and a lot of places that not everyoine able to see..
hahha...quite a nice experience i guess =)

Alright,, another half more hour to go...
I shall go toilet now, and see what else I can do..
haha

Now I know how sien is a driver...

Back

2009-07-27T18:12:00.005+01:00

from Taiwan.

The trip was awesome!
At least I get to know more about this Island.
The background, the culture, the people, the food.
Basically I get to know the difference between Taiwan and Malaysia.

By the way,
We have taken 1351 photos (that's only bro's DSLR, not including my camera) within a week.
Hahah..
But I think 1/4 were my camwhore photos...lol.
Will upload them either here or facebook.
Not so soon though.

Thanks to the trip,
My mood is back.
Started to in love in travelling now.
:)

Emo.

2009-07-13T08:55:00.003+01:00

Emo.
Emo.

Bad mood's haunting me again, after so long.
For no reason again??!
Just basically having this terrible mood in everything.
Just randomly pissed off at anything.
What the hell am I doing.

What happened to me.

Boo. Hate it!

Life goes on.

2009-07-08T19:14:00.003+01:00

Just wrote a long passage about grandma , here.

It will probably be the last blog post about her, just for my own remembrance.

Life goes on...

=)

Anyway, love "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus. Thumbs up! :)

Black Sunday.

2009-06-28T10:21:00.008+01:00

Met her few days ago.
She was as usual, nothing changed on her.
She talked to me, smiled at me.

When everyone was saying that I gained weight,
She was the only one who said I became much more leng lui d.
She always enlightened my day.

She was not blur.
She can recognised who am I even I've not met her for half year.
She was fine and normal but why.......

I so wish it was not real.
But life's like that...

r.i.p., grandma.

Dancing.

2009-06-28T04:54:00.004+01:00

I thought Diversity was incredible, until I saw the Quest Crew!

I don't know anything about dancing...but this is really impressing!
=)

Of course,
Michael Jackson's moonwalk dance in "Billy Jeans" and his 45 degree lean in "Smooth Criminal" are unbeatable even until today. Just go youtube it!
I'm not his fan, but undeniable,

he is a legend!

You wouldn't have interest on this, but ...

2009-06-25T12:07:00.002+01:00

I passed!!!

Yes yes... I passed my 1st year examination! :)
Ignore the breakdown, not very good(no first class) but who cares.
Since 1st year not counted, what I need is only a PASS to proceed.

hehe...
Finally man....
Finally I can SERIOUSLY REALLY VERY enjoy my Summer break now.
Like....till the MAX!
hehe

What a relief!!!
Life's wonderful! =)

Anyway, I have promised myself that if I passed, I will be serious with my second year.
Study constantly and no more last minute!
As in, no more veryy very last minute la...hahah

Till then,
HAppy Summer Break to all the UK ppl!

Take care!

Woohoo!

2009-06-17T20:22:00.003+01:00

Have been in the lovely country for few days.
Sweat alot but that doesn't make my weight gain less..
haha

Anyway,
Yea, I'm back in Malaysia.

To all those who find me,
Sorry for the rejection.
Seriously, just wanna spend time with family at least at this week.
Will meet you guys next week onwards or some day..
don't worry I'll be here for quite some time =)

p.s: To those who I've met, now you know how special you guys are to me??
muahhahahha....jkjk=p

Btw, no mood to blog recently....
for no reason.
haha...

Yeah so just a random update !
Take care ppl =)

Saturday, rainy day.

2009-06-06T13:38:00.004+01:00

Going to Starbucks to grab a coffee and a cake,
and then study Criminal there.

One more to go, and I am like as if exam already finish.
Totally no mood to study.

Criminal Law.
Sigh.
My last challenge of the academic year now:
Mens Rea, Actus Reus, Consent, Self Defence, Durress, Offences against person, Rape, Homicide, Attempt, Accomplices,Theft.

Let's see how am I going to put all these into my brain within 2 days.....

When you look out from your window, you will see...

2009-06-02T14:00:00.001+01:00

Leaves, during autumn!

Snow, during winter!!

Flowers, during spring!

Naked bodies, during summer!!

HAhah......

Why am I still blogging

2009-05-26T01:02:00.004+01:00

I've just spent an hour on Youtube, and 2 hours on blogsssss.
Wow.
How can I be so relaxing when exam is just 2 days away?
Or I should say,

I am physically relax, mentally stressed.

Blame myself for that.
I have no self discipline at all.
Hah.

Seriously.
I can't recall any single thing for Law now.
Haha.
Finger cross, for my FinalS.

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Anyway the main point of I'm still here blogging in stead of studying is because of you!

Happy Birthday!!! Lx.

Hehhee...say me not sincere.
Eh but at least I 'blog' about you specially=P
No pressie for you la..haha
Rmb your MU shirt?
I'm super sorry for can't get you one, cuz I have no chance to go Manchester also.
hahah

Oh well, since it's my blog, I have my right here to write it longer.
Hrmm...
First of all,
A big thank you to you!
For being a really good friend of mine...
A msg might seems simple and ordinary,
but it's the true care which matters.
It is hard to find in any friendship.
And I am glad I found it! :)

It's really special right, that the time we knew each other is not really long.
But we click!
=)
hehe

Enjoy the last few months in Malaysia before you fly alright?
And make sure we meet up when I fly back,
dn't give me lots of excuse I tell you..
haha
At the mean time,
Take Care!
and Have a great day ya...

Hugz

^^

Exams.

2009-05-24T00:48:00.000+01:00

Not an emo post=)

2009-05-13T01:38:00.008+01:00

This is the quiet room in the library, which is one of my favourite place to study.

Love here simply because it provides me a personal space!
Breeze, Ipod, Computer...... I'm trying to enjoy my studies....=p

Exam's in 2 weeks time.
Hope I can finish everything on time....
Good luck to all those who are sitting for exams too!
:)

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Had been video calling mummy this afternoon...
I really love the technology of getting 2 people far apart getting to see each other face-to-face.
Enjoyed the moment chatting with my family even we only can use such a way to chat:

Mummy !

Look at the baby carried by my daddy, Cute cute!! :)

Had been talking for more than an hour....=p

The fat fat brother...hahahha!

I forgot to take a snapshot of my 4th bro who was drawing his architecture work, showing off in front of me and at the same time chatting with me.

Lovely afternoon.
I'm motivated everytime after chatting with my family...
hahah don't know why....

Thankss ...hugs.

Library...

2009-05-03T15:20:00.002+01:00

What should be done on a beautiful Sunday?
Sleep, eat, movies or have a nice walk....

I spend it in indeed a special way.
I spend it in the BEAUTIFUL library.
HAhahah...
Yea so...I'm typing this post in library also.

Ah welll....
I can't imagine I've visited library everyday from morning till midnight, for already 2 weeks...
few more week to go.
And I'm free!

At the meantime....
Wish me luck...
I seriously need luck now....

Have a good day.

Recent Update.

2009-04-23T01:33:00.004+01:00

I've abandoned my blog for few weeks.
Blame the assignmentsSs!
HAha...imagine typing in front of the laptop days and nights for few weeks.
Thats the life when you pick LAW.

But that's not the worst.

Final's in about 5-week-time.
I've got 5 modules to study.
Don't ask me about my study progress, even me myself also don't know.
What I know is, I know nothing for one of the modules.
Impossible for me to finish whole syllabus for a module within one week,
So what to do?

Study Smart is the only way now, I guess.
Wish me luck mannn....

Other than that, my life is pretty fine.
Hanging out with friends, having fun with them....

Oh and,
IT'S SPRING NOW! or isit Summer?
wtv.
Finally I get to go out with a T-shirt, and get to eat Ice-cream at outdoor!
=)

But I still miss my home.
Can't wait to go back now...

HOMESICK

2009-04-10T14:07:00.001+01:00

My Dear Yi Jay

2009-04-06T17:26:00.003+01:00

He is so cute...
He knows how to call "jie jie" now!
=)

Miss him so much...

Are You Going to Finish Strong

2009-03-27T00:27:00.005Z

There's time when you feel like giving up.
There's time when you meet failure and don't feel like standing up again.
But Obstacles.
Everyone has to go through it.
You are not the worst. You won't be the worst.
Because there's always people even unfortunate than you.
Yet, they still live the life.
They never give up because they always appreciate life.
They are awesome, for who they are.
We are awesome, for who we are.
Even if you think you are not good in anything.
Be Thankful, for who you are and what you have.